People
always ask how it felt to have to leave my family, school and friends so suddenly and be quarantined in a hospital for
16 months. The closest analogy I can think of is to be drafted into the military. One day I was living with my
family and friends and three weeks later I was living in a hospital ward with my fellow patients, all complete strangers to
me. We weren't being shot at, but we were all fighting a common enemy, TB, that could kill us. And just as in
war, some of us would survive and some would not.
Death
was just a fact of life at the san. Some patients, like me, were on the road to recovery. But many others were
in various stages of dying, even though it could happen suddenly or take years. There were three different ways that
I saw patients die at the sanatorium, with the first being hemorrhaging. Because tuberculosis eats away at your lungs,
hemorrhaging could be very likely to happen in advanced cases. If the TB ate through a blood vessel in your lung, the
blood would collect in the lung and it would be like drowning in your own blood. Sometimes the hemorrhaging
could be stopped, but that seemed to be the exception. And you never knew who it would happen to or when.
The worst was when it happened at night. Bedtime
was 9 p.m. sharp, at which time the san radio station went off the air, the lights turned out in the wards and you would
go to sleep. But this one particular night, as if awakening to a nightmare, the lights came on in the middle
of the night and there were nurses and orderlies running into the ward. After my eyes adjusted to the glare of
the lights, I looked down the ward and saw one of the patients sitting up in bed, coughing and choking and spewing blood all
over the white linens on his bed. The nurses and orderlies grabbed his bed and wheel it right out
of the ward and down to the emergence treatment room. The whole episode only took about thirty seconds.
My adrenalin was pumping, but I finally manage to get back to sleep. Then, in the morning, I awoke to find
the bed, which had been rolled out the evening before, empty and made up with clean linens, ready for a new patient to occupy
it.
The second way that people would succumb
to the illness would be from surgery. Surgery to remove diseased lung tissue was a common practice and some patients were
in too bad a condition, either from the TB alone or in combination with other physical illnesses, to survive the operation.
But the worst form of death was for those
who not only had tuberculosis, but had it in combination with silicosis, or "black lung", from working in the Pennsylvania
coal mines. The coal dust they breathed for years permeated their lungs making it more difficult for the blood vessels to
absorb oxygen. I saw
guys struggle for months, gasping for every single breath they took. It was like slow strangulation, they couldn’t
get enough air to survive.
At age 17 it was a very strange feeling
to be surrounded by death and to see people die. Especially since I had no fear that I was in danger of dying, which
gave me the feeling of just being a spectator on the sidelines, watching the carnage around me.